GOORAMA!

By the time she was a teenager she’d already started her early ‘blind simulations’ by purchasing black sunglasses and, by the time she was 18, even added a cane to the guise.

Even through all of this, she didn’t completely master Braille until she was 20.

By the time 2006 rolled around she was ready to say goodbye to her sight completely. She claims to have found a psychologist to assist her with the ‘procedure’, who put a numbing agent onto her eyes themselves, and finally drain cleaner.

“It hurt, let me tell you. My eyes were screaming and I had some drain cleaner going down my cheek burning my skin. But all I could think was ‘I am going blind, it is going to be okay.’”

Obviously she needed proper medical attention, because this is in no way, shape or form a proper clinical procedure, and even ended up losing an eye entirely; the other was full of cataracts and glaucoma. At this point she was telling her family it was all an accident, trying to keep her little operation a secret for as long as possible, but eventually the truth came out. That’s when her family cut contact.

“I really feel this is the way I was supposed to be born, that I should have been blind from birth. When theres nobody around you who feels the same way, you start to think that youre crazy. But I dont think Im crazy, I just have a disorder.”

Personally, I feel that she’s allowing a disorder to control who she is and what her actions are, though there are some that believe she’s just accepted it. Regardless, would you burn your own eyes out?

Read more: http://damn.com/happier-blind/